soo, i have fucking issues. i'm feeling so indifferent, so horrible about absolutely everything. the drunk nights that i have these days that temporarily take me away have definately not helped. im fucking stupid. stupid, stupid, stupid. im at school writing this, talk about pathetic. well, so let's see my dad's moving out and i am not happy with that. what family am i gonna have now? none, my mom? well i have bella, and liz, amy. but damn i just feel empty these days. alone. ha everyone knows how i feel since i spill my heart out when im gone as fuck and cry for like 2 hours. and now i feel like im losing touch with bella, like we're getting sick of eachother and like my friends are starting to fall a part. im getting weird vibes from all the people i thought i could trust. i m fucking lost. I NEED GOD in my life right now, take me to church please. i don't even know but the im feeling right now, i know i don't wanna be feeling like this. anymore. i need to get it together, but how many times have i said that? too many to count. way too many. UGH, i just really am starting to see how fake and dishonest everyone can be. EVERYONE. there are definately no saints. God help me before i lose it. NOT EVEN THE LAST OF IT.
-meagan.
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