Revelation

I simply want to remind myself to document what I’m living right now. This is my fucking blog anyway, I can do as I please. (No one reads this anyhow, right?) Hope so.

Well so far I’ve moved out and away from Cali and everyone in West Sac, and my family, and Andrew’s family. And it has been months-feels like fucking years have gone by! Been here since the end of August so it has really only been 3 months up here in Oregon. Hah-my license that I’m finally getting will be an Oregon license. Damn Oregonians. It’s been real these last three months-haha. Me and Andrew have seriously been fucking off these last 90 some odd days-well less than that since we have taken 4 trips since we’ve moved(not on our own money either f*@%#$!) Only 3 months and we’ve gone up North to my sister’s(amazing/beautiful drive-our favorite) twice, and twice back down south to Cali. I feel like such an adult sometimes, being here on my own and having all this freedom-not to say that I didn’t have freedom before-but this is the ultimate freedom! No parents-no one you used to know-just a shitload of newness. I’m free to do what I want when I want. Sex, drugs, whatever I WANT! Of course I still need a job(I feel shitty every day I’m STILL not working) and I still need to register in school and blah blah blah blah but it feels fucking great to just do anything I want, on my own agenda-well more so. Without parents or family involved. And I am still so spoiled! My family-and Drew’s- have helped us out way more than they should have. I mean they all basically helped us get the fuck out of there. I am just very blessed, me and Andrew are lucky to have all these people who love us and want to see us succeed on this journey. And here at our new home people cared enough about us(me too thanks to baby) to support us til we eventually get jobs, and let us have all the freedom we want-there’s too many perks of living here now. I could not go back to living with my dad- my family is crazy sometimes, er well a lot of the time. Damn filipino tradition, beliefs, customs… whatever, at least the foods good.

The path to discovery is pretty rewarding so far. Me and Andrew drive eachother mad at times but we are learning so much-about each other about ourselves individually-living with awesome people-who love to talk shit to us haha. I’m glad as hell that we’re starting somewhere. Now just for that job.

There’s just too much I could write about right now about the last 3 beginning months of my immediate life-later later later.

 

And, and..AND we got our first tickets-I don’t even have my license and I got one. SEATBELT tickets! Shitty shitty fuck.

I’ll expand on all this later.